this blog is about a girl named Sirena who is from Guam, who lives on Guam, and who is exhibiting her life on Guam.
That's not the case anymore.
I no longer live on Guam.
I have finally left that tiny little island.
I'm sorry to all my friends who I left, but I had to leave.
God was calling me here, I know.
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What I've learned about packing up and leaving.
I've been learning to let go.
It was hard. I cried on Guam when I was getting ready to leave and I'm still crying here in Kentucky.
There was so much I left on Guam. Friendships. Family. Baggage. Jobs. People I wish I could've cultivated more of a relationship with. Letting go of Infusion. Gosh. I spent a lot of money on that place.
My job at Tommy Hilfiger was good.
Everything was just good. It wasn't great. I wasn't the best version of myself.
And now, I truly feel that this is an opportunity for me to be the best version of myself.
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When I got here to Kentucky, one of the first things I did was go to a 10 AM Mass.
During the priest's sermon, he informed us that he would be leaving the next day to like Arkansas or something to go on a 40 Day Retreat.
I was sad he was going to go away for that long because he seemed like a pretty cool priest.
It wasn't until at the end of the day that I realized what this time in Kentucky would be for me.
A spiritual retreat. I realized that this time is not my own. It belongs entirely to God to change me for the better, and to change me for good if I'm willing.
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It's a struggle, as one would expect. I feel spiritually dirty most of the time. But I feel more grace now than when I was in Guam. There is definitely more clarity because I'm here.
Everything was just good. It wasn't great. I wasn't the best version of myself.
And now, I truly feel that this is an opportunity for me to be the best version of myself.
_____
When I got here to Kentucky, one of the first things I did was go to a 10 AM Mass.
During the priest's sermon, he informed us that he would be leaving the next day to like Arkansas or something to go on a 40 Day Retreat.
I was sad he was going to go away for that long because he seemed like a pretty cool priest.
It wasn't until at the end of the day that I realized what this time in Kentucky would be for me.
A spiritual retreat. I realized that this time is not my own. It belongs entirely to God to change me for the better, and to change me for good if I'm willing.
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It's a struggle, as one would expect. I feel spiritually dirty most of the time. But I feel more grace now than when I was in Guam. There is definitely more clarity because I'm here.
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At the end of the day, I am grateful, so so grateful to God for bringing me. He pulled through, as He always does. I asked for a way out of my darkness. I was sinking in the raging waters, and I called out "Lord, save me." and He did.
Here is a vlog I made on more thoughts of me leaving my home:
